Self Destruction

I am self destructing
Caught in a storm of rage
Lost in a haze of loneliness
Struck by lightning of hatred
I am trapped in my own scary world
Don’t you see
I am screaming for help
I would never say
Then in my troubles
I found something beautiful
The one thing I loved most
You ripped away
Smashed me to the ground
Oh no!
Please do not leave
It was the only thing that kept me hoping
Kept me alive
It dies
I am sorry
I disappoint you
I am your mistake
You assume you know my soul
You have no idea
You cannot understand
What has always be hidden
Undiscovered
You have no right
To believe you know
Walk away
Leave me in my emptiness
You never cared enough
To say a word to me
I hate it all
This sinking feeling
The way my mind is terminated by regret
How my spirit is dying
And I watch
It is all slipping through my fingers
I am shouting inside
I want out
I need to get out
I cut slits in my arms
Just so I can bleed
Dancing on tight ropes
Dreaming to fall
Grab on to broken wires
So I may die of shock
Dive in to sewage filled lakes
Please suffocate me
Stuff my throat
Let me choke
Force it all up
I am burning
And I might waste away
Self destruction
Killing me
I should be dead
How can you not see all this?
How could you ignore it all?
How do you insist on looking passed me?
IM STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!!!"